I'm Freaked Out

Co-worker asks me to come help her get out of a part of the office program, I walk over and see CR I tell her "Just hit enter" (why didn't she try that before calling me over?) I walk away twitching, am I more freaked that I know CR means "carriage return" (anyone remember typewriters?" or because the program my company is using uses for enter? Twitch!!!!

Whaaaaa

My eee crashed, or got a virus, but it's useless and we may have to send it to the manufacture. I really miss it. R's tumors in his bladder are just going to have to stay put for awhile. Cannot believe the greed economy going on. Dr's office calls tells us we have to give him the $750 dedectible before he'll do the surgery. Hospital calls they want the $750. Hey wait a minute, are we concerned about the patients health or the Dr's pocket book. Turns out the Drs retiring and wants one last pocket lining. Up your's doc. R's company just had a open enrolment for Kaiser. Guess who joined. Lo's new bb is a dolly. Just 6lbs, I don't worry, she makes cream. He'll grow. Easter was a bust. We figured Lo be having bb, R'd be recovering so we didn't plan anything and everybody else had other places to go. At least is was a good strawberry/rubarb pie. Stressco's getting weird. They laid off Dolores Monday, I'm not unhappy, she didn't like the job and made sure other people knew. Jeannie R QUIT!!?? We'll I'm not surprised. I could hear it in her voice 2 weeks ago and told folks she was going to be going, didn't expect her to quit and go bar tending at a biker bar, but that's what she wants to do. Wish her well.
Got a fasinating call from the CFO, I think he was feeling me out as to weither I was going to be the next one gone. He told me he valued my abilities and wanted to let me know. I should have told him"raise not praise" Ah, well, nice to know you're apprecited by the boss if not by your co-workers. Going to the gym more often, feels good. Need to get a photo party under way. R got his NICET 3 certificate. YEAAAAAAA! finally!! NICET 4 is just some paperwork away. TAXES, yech. Gotta figure out why we're not having enuf withdrawn. We keep having to pay, and heavy. I don't do well on 4 hours sleep. The waterbed heater got disconnected and we ended up on the air mattress Friday night. Made a lousy Saturday. Have 4 quilts done. Wish I had the money to make more. Ah well as I labeld this WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

March

Found out last week R's got 3 more tumors in his bladder. Don't know if their new or were so small the Dr missed them. Going to try some herbal fightn back Surgery March30, taking several days off. Had to reschedule. Stressco got folks at the VDTA the week before . Stressso, what a joke. I'd be embarresed to train others that bad. No one has any idea why you use that function key or use those letters, you just do. No logic or reason, anyone got a worm?? Got so fustrated melted down. Weather's georgerous right now, what to go plant garden, wait this is Colorado and March, it's an illusion. April's coming. Almost ready to bring down the quilting machine. Going to use it while R's in recovery. Found a music theory teacher, finally, no we just have to find time to get together. Tron!!!! Gotta wait to December to see it?? AAARGG! Guess we won't have a photo party until after L1's baby pops. Just no time with this surgery, feel defeated by the new, my husband has cancer. Going to concentrate loosing weight and getting back to gym.

Hoping that this February storm is what could be called the crux of winter. We're on the down hill sloop and on our way to Spring. I've had enough cold weather let alone snow. I want to get some work done and can't as long as it's snowing. Need outside space to cut wood. Had a good time preforming at the Br00mfield nursing center. One of the old gents asked me if I could play "Going Home", I could almost remember it, I'll play it next time. The more I have to work with stresscos program the more I want to go job hunting. It's going to really slow us down and lose us customers and we're going to get blamed for the lost business. I'd really love to know if I can read minds. She's not too far from the other side, so pale and she grabs the nurses, but when she took my hand, it was soft and gentle and I thought I heard a "thank you, lovely music" but she can't talk. That's why I go back each month. Playing for their Sweetheart social was a ball too. Played for a full hour and was appreciated. Dad goes for his NICET 4 next Saturday. Finally that milestone will be past and supposedly they'll be a raise. R's wanted it for years.

Another week goes by

More overtime for R should be a nice paycheck. Trying to go the gym everyother day, still not working out. Quit DUP got tired of feeling like I don't belong. Was looking for a service orginazation, not a "sit down and read stories about stuff in a museum, " group of people that 3 years later I still don't know. Relief Society doesn't serve mankind, DUP doesn't either, still got a void. Back to making slipper, quilts and sock dolls. Sewing rooms a disaster. Got a very lovely jungle quilt done. This one might go on sale to finance others. WANT MY QUILT MACHINE BACK, studios a constant dumping ground. Stressco came in to start training, yikes they use an OLD unix program called DejawinT, I feel like I'm stepping back into the stone age, I think pen and paper would be better than this program. Slow, stupid and not the least be friendly, You can't even use a mouse inside the program. The computer gods are laughing. Am playing for Broomfields Sweetheat Dessert night Thursday, "Endearing Charms went together in 3 days, I'm amazed. Just with I get happy with ""You are my Sunshine" Miss Skyping with Joe and kiddos. Cold and snowy Sunday, Going to pack up the photos prepitory to a "Pizza and Photo Party" I give up.

Sunday Morning

Listening/watching Spoken Word. Thats another pipe dream. bad pun. Had T&K yesterday so D&A can get ready to move. Quite some very bright kiddos. K was singing I Am A Child of God all by himself. Not everything was understandable, I figured it out and when we sang it the 2nd time, he told me to let him sing it alone the 3rd time and Gpa could understand everword that time. R's got much overtime this week, looks like a mostly dead weak, could use one. Getting fustrated with computers and photo albums and guitar. Need help. Not sure to ask. It's winter R's getting nose bleeds. Not much yarrow in the bed, just enough as always. Want to spend a day in the sewing room and get quilts done and clean out fabric. Never enough hours.

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Larson Loonie Byne
Dad found two of the them one unopened. We went to a HAM swapmeet as sellers. Make our entry fees back. Sold one necklace. Brought my beading to keep me busy and to sell. Up in Ft Collins, need to tour that town. Home, to Broomfield Nursing home for HD work out. Need to practice more. Visited W & J good visit, we gonna exchange some labor and change a stove next weekend. L&D came by with some word on house hunting. Oh to be able to take up a different life. Dreams.